Means offering .... any offering to GOD.
I like to attach more meaining to my name and like to think Arpana (I / body or the soul) is an offering to GOD. It is the ability ( as Tagore put it in one of his poems) the will to surrender myself to thine will. It is dedication of oneself , body and soul , thoughts and words , action and inaction , love and hate , purity and impurity and all those hundred other things that make me ( both this body [which defines my boundary in this materialistic world] and the soul ( which is a part of GOD himself) to HIM .
Arpana thus means an offering , a dedication to the LORD .
So who am I ? Am i just an offering ? What is my role in this vast inky blue sky? What am I in this crowd of people , planets , suns , stars , galaxies and universes ? Why am I here ? What brought me here ? Do I have a specific reason to be here ... doI have something I alone can do ? Is there a void that I alone can fill ?
Or am i Just another body, whose existence can be thrown away just by a mere blowing of this cosmic wind known as time ? Am I just a body .... a body that is a boundary marking out a certain area in this cosmos ? Am I just a form born out of a momentary pleasure ? A mass of a vast system envolped in one another forming tissues ?
Why then Do I have ceratin emotions and desires ? Is it because of this body Or is it because of the soul? Does the soul really exist? If it does not .... when why do we die? what is death ? Is it the absence of soul ? or is it the absence of functioning of a system in this multilayered multi dimensional mass of flesh and blood ?
What is my function here ? Why am I here ? What am i offering ? and what am i being offered ? O Lord ..... You showed me the light and the path by asking me to "Do my Duty without thinking of the fruit , not to do action and niether to invoke inaction for the sole reason of an end. " Now tell me this , what is my duty? what duties am I supposed to perform ? Whom am I supposed to fight ? Whos side am I suposed to take ? What is right and what is wrong? What is the means ans what is the end ? What is action and what is inaction ? What is duty and what is its fruit?
Do I fight You ? You who is my creator ? You who is nothing but me ? If you are me then what am I ? You are formless , I have a boundary . How then am I ,you or You , me ?
If My soul is one with you , why then am I restricted by this wall which is the body ? If a body is a necessity for a soul to be in ... for did you not say ... soul changes the body just as one would change the clothes ? then why do YOU not have a body ?
I see YOU everywhere , in everything , so do you see me ? Or does that mean I see myself in everything ?
I am Arpana . Is a name an indicator of a soul ? Or is it an indicator of the body ? If it is the indicator of one , then what is the indicator of the other ? What denotes me and what denotes you ? What is a question and what is an answer ? An answer leading to another question that leads to another answer which takes us to another question ? So why do you have a question and an answer ?
I am Arpana. Who are You ?