Warning - There are no witty oneliners or funny incidents or foot-in-mouth situations - those who hate rants STAY AWAY
There are mood swings and then, there are mood swings.
So while I spend half a day feeling top of the world, I spend the rest trying to strangle myself.
And there are pretensions to be kept up. It is important that you 'look' okay. Who cares whether you are or not? Cant think of many who geniunely would.
So, what makes me feel top of the world? Well... The now-famous J now has my name on top of his blog link - so a lot of people have been silenced - in his words " abe! tujhe khush karne ke liye main ne itni saari ladkiyon se dushmani le li - tujhe aur kya chahiye? hamesha khit pit" So there - a tiny bit of appreciation for being a friend I get :P
This Corporate Strategy case study seems to be getting on my nerves brrr! I have an entire booklet to read about the Japanese beer industry and Asahi breweries. Seems like my professor recently visited my blog and decided to give me a lesson or two about drinking. Need to have all the strategies ready by tomorrow and believe me I havent touched the case yet - still reading the reading material given to understand the case ! Aah the woes ... gone are the blissful days of Math and Accountancy.
Work, for the first time is getting on my nerves ... not because I dont like it - I love my job; its just frustrating to run to the finish line just barely within time and Ive been doing that on a couple of tasks on hand - and to think I havent begun on another task that takes a min of 2 weeks .. while the deadline is just 4 days away - its gonna be a helluva ride !
A self evaluation test required me to write my core values.
The same test required me to write the philosophy of my life.
The test asked me what was that one thing for which I would stake the above two.
I scribbled the answer. - Easy.
Why would one find questions about oneself difficult?
I stared at the answers. The first two were self centered; almost bordering on the egoistic.The words showed off a pride of being me. The two reasons that made me different from the rest – and hence made me ME. Gave me an illusion of life and a good illusion at that.
It was the third that ripped the fabric of my existence apart. The third answer made my life hollow and mocked every ion of my being.
Teary eyed, I wished to rub it off; write something that did not hurt so much; write a lie so that I could get back to sanity - Foolish.
Someone once told me - until its in your mind, its there - something vague; once articulated and written down; it becomes something solid and tangible. You have told yourself, something that you never wanted to accept - and this means you ARE on your way to accepting it.
One is ready to throw away your whole being for something one is never destined for.
The answer to the third question –
True and Absolute Love.
What are you ready to throw off your whole being for?